Thursday, September 25, 2014

A serious question regarding women.... not cat videos


"Fearing that I cared for nothing doesn't scare me anymore for you deserved zero of my heart. Then I laid my eyes on a face that held such a wonderful smile and I realized that I was chasing a ghost before you and I spoke words of meaning followed by smiles of content.Holding you in my arms as cars sped by, exhaust fumes floating by in their own way spreading their venom. Which means nothing anymore, like the words that were spit from a harlots mouth. Ignoring the fact that I was brushed off but caught by an angel in disguise as the stars tried in their own dammed way to peak out behind clouds of grey to get a look at what it means to not be alone. Speaking to you meant worlds to me, and all I ever wanted was in front of my face as false promises were left a few blocks over until they were gone for good. I feared to be thrown out as human waste but I was recycled by your words of good will and a smile that I needed but felt as if I didn't deserve. Phone lines no longer silent as satellites carry our voices from thousands of miles away, from my mouth to your ear I heard you laugh as I pictured your smile in my head like a beautiful crime scene that you can't look away from. The twisted metal of my head being re-welded back to new by words of hope. If you left tomorrow I'd drive across state lines, car on empty just to see you smile as I sing you all of your favorite songs, out of tune, but not out of touch. I'll be like the bicycle your father bought for you as a child, but rain made the chain rusty and weak. You fixed me up with a little bit of grease and made me feel good as new again. I could be your ride,safe,fun, and glad to know that I'm there to make you happy as you put a smile on this lonesome face I suddenly don't feel alone from my memories. Thank you for being you, for being alive.
- Adam Schnellenbach